Oh my how cool technology is these days. It's been 8 and a half years since I have had a baby! First is a picture that my friend Rose wanted, blah, I hate pictures of me. And please excuse the mess in the background, I had way to many people at my house these past few days, and my room was not on my priority list.

I can't believe I'M so huge and I'M not quite to my 3rd month yet!! I know second baby and all but dang!!

Maybe back in the day they had the capability of doing an ultrasound at 11 weeks but I didn't know about it. So here is the picture you have been waiting for. The baby is as big as a baby carrot.

I can see the shape of the head and the makings of hands. Is that what you see? Maybe a belly?

I just cried and cried! It's so weird how it hits you when you see it or hear the heartbeat that you actually have a human being growing inside you! It's amazing!

Well I go back on March 12th for my second visit. I had them test me for Thyroid problems so we will see what the results are. But everything else is great.

That's all I have today, I got to get my house back in order so I'm off to clean like crazy, until exhaustion hits anyway. lol

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
~me~

The 11th week of baby.

Hi guys!! sorry I haven't been on for a while, all these kids I have been watching are keeping me quite busy. I have been feeling less moody but a little more nauseated. My friend told me about these wrist bands that have these button like things on the underside so when you where them they give like an acupuncture effect. It seems to work really well, but it's kind of uncomfortable after a while and I have to take them off. It really helps to eat a little bit every 2 hours also.
IM so excited about my first appointment this Thursday. They will get a for sure due date by checking the size of the baby. I can't wait to hear the heart beat and see the baby on the screen. I have been supper nervous about loosing it because it happened to a few of my friends around this time. But I still have all the symptoms so I feel confident that all is well. But you know just normal worries.
One thing that I know is different this pregnancy than my other is that the foods IM craving are allot healthier. I love sandwiches!!! I love turkey or ham with Swiss cheese and pickles. YUMMY!!! I eat cottage cheese and pears or peaches all the time. I can't do the sweets all that much, I tend to turn to the fruits as my sweets. My one weakness is Buffalo wings, I don't have a clue why but they always hit the spot.

This week is going to be so crazy!! Tomorrow I go with Cierra on a field trip all day. I took the day off so I could do one last field trip with her. Next year she will be in 5th grade!! I can't believe it, but I think she will think she is to old to have a parent come on field trips with her anymore, and I only get to do one a year so I always miss out on the other two kids. I decided to just alternate years to do field trips with the girls. This year with Cierra next with Ayda and next with Cheyenne.
Then my grandparents are coming in either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning. IM so excited for them to come because they have never been here to visit since we moved here 4 years ago. Then Wednesday night I am helping a lady in our church, she just had hip surgery and she takes complete care of her husband because he is in a wheelchair, so now with her recovering they both need people to help out. I am going over there at 6pm and staying until 11pm. Thursday is our doc apt and right when we get home I will have 2 kids getting dropped off for me to watch. Plus Stacy's nephew is coming to stay with us until Saturday when Stacy's parents are coming into town and also staying with us. So many people going to be here and I want to spend time with the Grandparents as much as I can(there are staying in their RV btw). Saturday we are also helping a friend out because her husband is always traveling and he will be home for Valentines so we offered to take the kids overnight so they can have some time alone. We have a surprise 50th birthday party to go to for Stacy's uncle and everyone is going! It will be so much fun, but I know by the time we even get there IM going to be exhausted from this weeks schedule.
So I need you guys to wish me luck that I can pull all this stuff off and be a great and not moody host.

I hope to post pics of the ultrasound next week so check back!!!
Hope everyone is doing well!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
~me~

Hormones! GRRRRRRR watch out for the venting....

So I know prego people have these extra hormones running around in our bodies running a muck. But either it's my imagination or it's really bad this time around. My temper is worse, my patience is awful, and people irritate the hell out of me!!! Sometimes I wish for the morning sickness instead of getting irritated so easily. My poor family, I can't believe how much I have been yelling this week and how the little things that my husband use to do, just annoy me now. He pokes a teases me and now instead of me giggling I give him the evil eye. Poor man. But he is being unbelievably sweet under the circumstances.
Well on Sunday he had a friend over he was helping with something and the person new that Sunday's are busy for our family because after church we have maybe an 1hr at home then we have to leave to the grandparents house and usually stay until 3 or 4. Well Stacy had told him this and said please come on Saturday instead and he could help. The person new that Stacy had to work that day at 4pm because he was on call. So Stacy is waiting around until almost 3 and he finlay calls and aske if he can come over, and Stacy said no that he wouldn't have time before he had to leave. So Sunday after church he showes up and Stacy is helping him and it's about 12:30 and IM already in a bad mood because he just shows up and puts Stacy on the spot. So I don't want to be the witch and tell him that we need to leave. lol so I send Ayda out to tell Stacy we have to get going or we will be late. 15 more min go by and I have had it by now, I get on my jacket and grab my purse and go outside and say ok we really need to go now. They are both just standing there talking like no big deal. I said how long have you been done, they said about 15 min. I said well why haven't we left yet then? I said ok lets go girls get into dad's truck, mine was blocking everyone so I had to get into mine and move it for them. The guy, after I had moved has nothing blocking him in, but he is just sitting there watching Stacy packing some stuff in the back of the truck to take to work. IM all tapping my fingers still waiting in my car in the street for them both to pull out. So the guy doesn't pull out and Stacy ends up getting out first then finaly after another few minutes the guy Finlay leaves!! I race my car back in the driveway to park and get out and go to the truck and get in. Stacy can tell I'm upset. I ask what was he waiting for, he giggles and says he's not sure. I say, how rude when he knew we needed to be somewhere that he just shows up and then just sits there yapping to you and then sees that IM waiting to park in his spot and then he takes a lifetime to leave!!! Stacy just smiles and puts his hand on mine and says I know sweetie, IM sorry. I felt like a punk after that but it's still bugging me. aahhh

This all probably makes no sense to whomever is reading but I feel better all ready venting.

Allot of stuff has been happening with the Ex wife situation to. And if anyone knows me, I'M not the type of person to hate people not even her. Well I need to repent now and ask for help because I actually hate the girl now. So most of you know I have been taking care of the woman(aka child)'s children. I have loved every second of everyday of it too. I have even spent my own money on them because that's what parents do. Even my b-day money sometimes, I can't help it! So Stacy calls her and says your late(as usual) paying child support and since your late now the girls dance payment is late so you owe the late fee of $10. She's all why couldn't you cover my end until I got you the child support? I mean can you believe this lady?!? Why should we cover your end when we already cover so much as it is?!?! Then she gets all huffy cause Stacy is finally laying into her and saying you have no idea what we do for these girls what we pay for that your dang child support doesn't even cover, Jamie even uses her own money and she has done more for your children than you have ever done(I was in shock after that one). So she gets all mad and says we keep saying $10 here $5 there and she can't afford it anymore that we are just making her jump though hoops to get money. Whatever!!! She freaks out and says fine! Guess what?! Forget me paying full child support anymore and forget me paying half of the bill that she and Stacy have been paying half on for over 3 years now. She also said that the papers about her child support being cut in half was in the mail and that it had already gone through court. Which is BS because we have jurisdiction here in TX now because we have been here so long. Then she just hang up on him.
Well I get to counting how this is all going to add up and how far behind a month we will be and I freak out and start crying. I tell Stacy I hate her now, and all the time I stuck up for her is over she is never allowed to stay in my house again. (I would always to let her stay one night or so at our house just to be nice because we all could tolerate each other. But no more, I'M done helping someone out that is a total..... uh freak!) Stacy is staying way too calm and it is driving me nuts! says he looked up a few things and come to find out, he doesn't even have to pay half of the medical for them and that she is totally resp for that and come to find out if she wants to fight anything she has to come here to do it! So I'M feeling better by now and saying fine we are going to from now on garnish her checks for child support instead of just letting her pay us on her own time. Stacy calls her back and tells her all this stuff and she ends up being the one freaked out and says fine it will be back to normal. Hangs up again. I feel allot better but we are still looking further into this jurisdiction thing.
So there I got it out! I feel better. Woes me! j/k I'M alllllllll good now. Thanks for listening to me whine. Sorry!!! I will make sure the next post will be a happy one. :o)

5 weeks and 2 days....

OK so I'm in my 5th week and it's funny but I keep checking the toilet paper for spotting. I know I'M prego but I guess I'M still in shock! I'M really looking into natural birth and it's not as scary as I thought it might be, well at least not yet. I did a lot of research today on what is going on with the baby and what it looks like and all that and I can't believe that it is already busy with 3 layers forming. The outer layer will develop into the nervous system, and the inner layer will become the liver, pancreas, intestines, and bladder. The middle layer, is developing into the heart and circulatory system, which will be the first organs to function in the baby. Isn't that wild? You all may already know this but I didn't do much research with Ayda and it's been kinda fun learning so much. I must be bloating also or I got somewhat chubby these past few days, because my jeans are getting tight and it hurts to bend over in them. One of the ladies I babysit for told me about this thing called the Babyband. I guess you can wear some of your regular jeans for a while before you have to buy the new maternity ones. With the Babyband you can unbutton and unzip your pants and put this band thing around your waste and it keeps your pants up and also hides the button and zipper button through your shirt that you would have without the band. Cool huh?! I'M so going to look into that, cause I have a feeling that I will be needing to buy a couple of sizes as I get bigger, blah!
So I was freaking out cause yesterday I ate some smoked oysters, I know some of you may think that is gross but I LOVE LOVE LOVE them. Anyway, I thought dang I wasn't suppose to have fish things cause of the mercury in them. Well come to find out I guess it's only raw fish or large fish. But smaller things like shrimp and oysters and Sardines are actually a good thing to eat once in a while. They help with the growth of some of the major organs in the baby during the 1st trimester. So wooosh, I feel a lot better. I have noticed that my eating habits have changed a lot though. I don't need to eat as much to feel full. I had some of those sardines for dinner and an orange, strange dinner huh? But I couldn't finish the sardines or the orange. That happened yesterday with the real dinner I made, I could only eat half of what I dished up. I sooo hope this is a start of a better eating habit for me. Anyway, IM soooooooo taking forever on this blog.

Love ya!!

OH baby!

So I just can't stop smiling and I can't tell anyone else so I thought I would tell whoever is reading this. WE ARE PREGNANT!!! After 8 months of trying we go it right this last month. And according to Jen's estimations I'M due around September 6Th. WOW, I can't believe there is a life growing inside of me. I know I already have 3 kids and I shouldn't be so excited but 2 I didn't birth and 1 was under some really hard circumstances. They are such wonderful children and we all are so excited. This is just so much more fun with someone you love so much and loves you back as much. The girls are already trying to think of names. I have a girl name but we aren't going to find out what it is so we are thinking up names for either or.
So this is definitely going to be a new start to my blogging experience because I think I will keep this as my journal for the next 9 months. IM sure a lot of it might be winy but hey that's the nature of a pregnant beast. hehe
ALL SUMMER TEXAS PREGNANCY! ahhhhhhhhh but it will be so worth it in the end.

Lots of prayers would be nice to help this go smoothly.

We are so blessed!

WOW!!

Vent vent moan groan. Wahhhhh!

HI everyone or no one,

It is Tuesday and I have no kids this morning, YAY me! This is such a rarity that I thought I would put my time to some good use and blog. It's funny but when I woke up and realized that I have about 2 and a half hours to myself I felt confused and not sure what to do first. Should I go for a walk and get some exercise? Or I could play my favorite game on-line? Or clean?(that one was first OFF the list, lol) Well I guess Blog and then clean up.

So lets see IM not sure how many of you know that my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant since April. It's been a little tougher these past few weeks knowing that we still aren't but I keep in mind that the longer it takes me maybe the less time I will have to spend prego in the Summer. That has kept me not so down in the dumps for a while but it's wareing off now and I will be miserable through the summer as long as I knew that we were about to expand our home with a new little one.
I know some of you may think IM crazy and I already have a house full of kids, but I love kids and I have been watching all these other people's babies and it has been really playing with my emotions. My girls would be such good big sisters and I can't wait to go through the whole experince with a man that I love and loves me. I didn't get that with Ayda and I would love to have the whole daddy is with me and taking care of me experience. I loved being pregnant with Ayda, it was one of the very best things that has ever happend in my life. I would have more than one more if we had the money. I love big families, I feel I give my love and attention as equaly as possible to all the girls and could do that with a new child.
Well I guess all we can do is pray and wait.

I think IM done venting for today, maybe I will get back on another time and download some pictures of our day at the tree farm picking out or Christmas tree. I can't believe it's that timeof year again. This year has flown by.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Time flys when your busy.....

Wow it really has been a long time since I have done this. I can't believe how time has flown by this year. This month alone has surprised me by how busy we have been. The second week of October Stacy's ex wife came and stayed with us so she could visit with Cheyenne for her birthday. We took Cheyenne bowling at one of our favorite place. It's very cool there and we have our own hostess every time we go, never been to a bowling ally that has a hostess for every group that comes in. Anyway, she had a few of her friends (all cousins and sisters) come and we had a blast!! The tiniest one playing was Kyra and she is 2, so cute! Then we have Omi (grandma) who is 80 something. We got pizza and I made a cake. It was alto of fun and Cheyenne had a blast!

Then 2 weeks later I was off to Maryland to visit my sister in Columbia. It was allot of fun we had a good time shopping and went out to eat a few times. It's really cool how we have grown closer to each other these past few years. She is so happy and in love with her wife I'M very happy for her. I forget how pretty it is back east in the fall, all the different color trees. Autumn is so wonderful there, even though I can do without the cold, it was lovely. I miss her already, hopefully I can get her back out here soon.

Then the following weekend was out Church retreat. That was amazing! I love all the women at my church, they are so fun to be around, not your typical church going group, we know how to have fun. I had put together a BUNCO night there and most of the people who signed up had never played before so it was fun to see them go crazy and get all excited. I asked if anyone would want to be a part of a monthly BUNCO night and all said yes. Great, what did I get myself into ow I have to organize and pull that off. Those who know me know I'M not good at Organizing. But what is cool about this is the money that people bring for the monthly game most of the money goes to our Capitol Fund program to gain money for our new church property which is over 17 acres!! I can't wait until we get it done it's going to be like a YMCA but much better. So that is one thing that I'M excited about right now.

Also that weekend was also Halloween weekend and I did miss this year but I don't think I will miss again because I really missed the girls and Stacy, being away 2 weekends in a row was probably not the best thing. But Stacy's Ex came back that week and did it with them, she hasn't had a Halloween with them since we moved to Texas so it was nice she could be her with them. I'M not sure Stacy thought it was nice but oh well it's all for the kids right? I think that was the last more than 1 night stay she will be having at our house. It's just so uncomfortable, you know? We get along good but it does where on me and mostly Stacy cause he can't stand her but he gets over things fast. Her are a few pics that she took:

Well now that October is over November is proving to be just as busy. I have recently taken on another baby to watch, gran it this is only for 2 days a week and he is only here for a few hours during the other kids nap time so it hasn't been to hard. He is only a little over a month old and he sooooo cute. I love babies.

We also bought a new mattress and bed. I have never had real bedroom furniture of my own, always hammy downs or just the bear minimums. I'M into this black brown look and we got the bed from IKEA, love it! Now I just have to figure out where to put everything that we had in our old nightstands, they were allot bigger so I have a ton of crap in them. But when I get it all done it will look nice. Our bed is a king now and takes up so much room in the bedroom that it looks bad with all the stuff spread out on the floor. The girls love it, now we can all lay with each other in the morning and be comfy and not squished! Now to get everything on craigs list and get it out of our garage, blah!

This weekend we have a party to go to and next week we have so much going on, the ex will be here late Friday night and leave with the Cierra and Cheyenne on 22nd to go to Utah for Thanksgiving. Then that weekend Stacy and I are going to celebrate our 2 year anniversary even though its this weekend. Gotta wait till payday ya know. (But I still spent a little and got him a card, some candles(shh) and a cute sign that goes over our bed "always kiss me goodnight". That's more for me than for him but he will still like it. lol). I hate shopping for him he is so hard to know what to get him. Well I know what to get him but it's like $250!! The sunglasses you can listen to music with.

We are having Thanksgiving at our house again this year, it just makes it easier on the grandparents so they don't have to do much. But I wish I had a second me sometimes so I can get more things done before everyone shows up.

I know this is a long long Blog but hey I haven't been on here in forever and this is also my venting tool. Mostly this is for Jen since she is always pestering me to do this. I just have no time, this post alone has taken me 5 different trys to type up. lol

Not sure what other pics I have to put up but here are a few:

out on the boat this last summer

Until next blog, buh bye!